I know this is an absolute rant of a post, but that’s not going to stop me from writing it or posting it.
I have realised something in the last 24 hours, and it’s something that I should have realised a few weeks ago, or at least a fortnight. I have stopped working and caring about what I’m doing because I am a total worry wart, and me being a worry wart I have let things get extremely out of control.
Instead of forgetting about what was going on around me, I let myself get completely caught up in it and now I’m suffering from the consequences. I am so scared about what is going to happen by the end of my exams if I don’t stop letting things get to me so easily.
BUT! I am not going to let this continue. For the next 3-4 weeks I am going to study, read and write in all my spare time; I have to make up for what I’ve lost. Hopefully it will be enough, and even if it’s not next semester is going to be so different: I am going to work my ass off and get the degree I know I can.
I am no longer going to let myself get so caught up in such trivial little things that really don’t matter at the end of the day.
I will work and get the grades and English results I know I can. Oh, I’m also going to read so much more than I do now!
Ok, back to writing. Rant over!